[It is in fact because of Rean, but that doesn't make it Rean's fault. Gaius being clueless is his own damned fault, when he's had plenty of clues that make sense now. Hindsight is 20/20 and all, but he really should have been wiser.
He leans back in his chair, dragging his hands down his face and trying to breathe steadily. What on earth is he going to do?]
If I were just another priest, I could stay. But with this power...
[There's only a handful of people like him in the church, and none he knows of outside of it. He wonders, though, if anyone has ever actually said no to becoming an exorcist, once their power has manifested. What happens then? What will they do if he quits?]
I don't know if I'm allowed to leave or not. I never thought to ask.
[The church has always seemed kind, but there's blind spots in his view of it that are just now becoming apparent. The problem is, any dark answer he may come across he can be sure is a policy made with good intentions. With belief in doing the right thing. So if he crosses lines, he can be sure anyone who comes after him will be doing so with honest conviction.]
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[It is in fact because of Rean, but that doesn't make it Rean's fault. Gaius being clueless is his own damned fault, when he's had plenty of clues that make sense now. Hindsight is 20/20 and all, but he really should have been wiser.
He leans back in his chair, dragging his hands down his face and trying to breathe steadily. What on earth is he going to do?]
If I were just another priest, I could stay. But with this power...
[There's only a handful of people like him in the church, and none he knows of outside of it. He wonders, though, if anyone has ever actually said no to becoming an exorcist, once their power has manifested. What happens then? What will they do if he quits?]
I don't know if I'm allowed to leave or not. I never thought to ask.
[The church has always seemed kind, but there's blind spots in his view of it that are just now becoming apparent. The problem is, any dark answer he may come across he can be sure is a policy made with good intentions. With belief in doing the right thing. So if he crosses lines, he can be sure anyone who comes after him will be doing so with honest conviction.]